Faith

Sometimes I have to wonder if I have faith. Its like, idk, but I really wonder if I do, or I merely say


I believe that something will happen for me or w/e, but then after a while when I don't see what I


want happening, I start with the "what ifs" and the "suppose...". But its one thing I know, is that I


should...I MUST wait on the Lord no matter what the situation is, great or small. Psalm 27:14 says


"Wait on the Lord, be of good courage and He shall strengthen thine heart, wait I say on the Lord"


and that I do for I know that patience is virtue. But it still bothers me, as to if I have faith or not? I


need to talk to somebody.

The love of God

Have you ever just thought about the Lord's love and mercies, how great they are? When I look back and see what He has done for me, I must bless His name, he's soo marvelous. I remember when I was about 4 or 5 years old, my mother was having her dinner and I was sitting with her; I felt thirsty, so I asked her for some water, while she was feeding me with this water, I don't know what happened, but I collapsed and was stone dead(according to my mother). She went in the next room in tears to call my grandma and aunt who came over me and pleaded THE BLOOD OF JESUS until I was revived in tears! God heard their cries and helped me! Lord I'm grateful! I remember how I (stupidly :D) jumped from a moving bus and was perfectly fine! About 2 years ago, after waking up one morning I went straight to the refrigerator to have some water. I took my cup and poured it fine...I don't know what happened after that. When I got up, I saw my grandmother rushing to see what was that thud, I staggered and passed her to go to the living room to sit. By the time I was to sit down again I started to feel terrible so I called out to Grandma...don't know what happened again. When I became revived I was calling out to Jesus and so was my crying grandmother. We still continued to call out to Jesus till I felt a bit more strengthened. When I went to the kitchen and saw the state of it, I shuddered! The glass dining table was pushed far away from its original position, the chairs were also pushed away and one broken and I'm very heavy. God was there protecting me from harm. In that same year, I was suffering from depression, couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, paranoid and always crying. This went on for about 3 weeks, I was going crazy. I started to hate my father and wanted to stay home all the time. I was so hungry for these 3 weeks.


 This spell of depression was broken when the Lord sent me a song via my aunt. That morning she sang the song something broke within me, I broke down in tears and I cried until this burden was lifted. This was Jesus! I have been through so many things and I saw God work them all out for me. I have sinned often times, I have asked the Lord to forgive me and I know He has, and now He is just helping me to clean out all the junk I've been holding on to, stuff I liked and thought were ok, types of songs I stupidly started to listen to, people that were not good, jokes, types of clothing and the like. God is real, I love Him soo much and I just want to be perfect in His sight. I thank Him for His love towards me=nothing!!!

God is...

God, Is The Refuge
God, Is The Rock
God, Is The One, Who
Sets Eternity’s Clock



God, Is The Treasure
God, Is The Answer
God, Is The Pleasure
God, Is Adventure



God, Is The Right
The Reason and Reality
God, Is The Light
The Judge and Finality



God, Is The Hope
And Glory, Above All Things
God, Is He, Who Spoke
… Brought Forth, Living-Beings



God, Is The Power
The Passion and Supreme
God, Is … Our
Unbeatable Dream-Team!



God, Is Wisdom
And The Beautiful King
God, Is The Vision
In All Good Things



God, Is Mercy
God, Is Just
He … Is ‘ Who ’ We Need
God, Doesn’t Need Us



God, Is The Holy-Core
And Sacred-Mystery
God Is … And Therefore …
So, Are We



God, Is What His Word, Shows
And What God … Is Made Of
Everyone Knows …
That, God Is … Love